A new way of being

A new way of being is coming in.

We must allow it. 

We must surrender fucking control. 

Like hard core surrender. 

Surrender like you’ve never done before.

We must allow the old to fall away.

Because it is no longer sustainable. 

And we must release all the guilt we feel for doing so. 

I have observed within myself this year that a new way is coming in, after going through several more awakenings. 

I have kicked, cried, and screamed every time I have to unplug and spend time offline to integrate. 

I have controlled, gripped, and done my fucking head in trying to make things happen in the way I want them to, in the time I want them to.

Can you relate? 

I have felt an immense amount of guilt and shame that I’ve had very few new clients this year, after all the worldly success I had for so many years. 

But the Universe had to put me in a big fucking time out so I could heal lots of shit (more on that soon).

I have felt an immense amount of shame and guilt that I’ve had to rest a whole lot, to stay home a whole lot to integrate all these additional awakenings I’ve experienced.

An immense amount of guilt for unplugging for weeks at a time, multiple times this year.

An immense amount of shame that sometimes I had to manifest money in other ways and support from others, when my other income streams weren’t enough to cover all the bills some months.

For not being “consistent” here on social media like I used to, the last almost 10 years since launching my first biz. 

But that shit has got to fucking go. 

And I finally let it.

I finally let that tower fucking crumble. 

I did not like it, believe me I did not lol. 

But it is the only way to allow the new to come in. 

The New Earth energy cannot hold these outdated systems and ways of doing things. 

Although I dropped the hustle mentality many years ago and since have been teaching feminine frequency and flow to my clients….

There was still so much that kept coming up to slap me in the face, where I still wasn’t fully living in that frequency. 

A lot of that was due to limiting beliefs I still had, like can things really get to be that flowy and easy all the time? 

Can I really rest that much? (which most of the time my angels lovingly helped me realize I wasn’t really “resting” like I thought I was lol)

Can I really let go of all these systems that I have done for almost a decade in biz? 

Can I really let go of control that much? 

During this recent social media detox, I also did a detox for my body, along with lots of yoga and meditation. 

I finally allowed myself to put myself first, and stop trying to force every area of life because I felt like I still “had to” do certain things. 

I don’t know exactly what this new way of being and biz looks like fully yet. 

But I do know I will commit to it fully.

Not the halfway letting go and flowing in my feminine frequency like I have been doing the last few years.

I haven’t seen anyone else truly leading a movement quite like this, and for years I looked for someone to emulate. 

So I decided I would show up and lead the way, even if it’s fucking scary and brand new. 

But we will get through this together. 

Whether you’re an entrepreneur or not, this can also apply to you.

So even though in my heart of hearts, I love hanging here frequently and helping you….

That way of doing things I have to let go of. 

Maybe sometimes I’ll be online daily, maybe sometimes I won’t be on for a whole week.

Why do we truly care so much anyway? This is a question I have been asking myself a lot.

Is it because someone told us we “had to”? Well it’s time to break up with all the fucking rules, on a whole new level. 

So I may lose a lot of followers, because I’m not out there force feeding content all the time. 

(what’s funny though is during my 1 month social media detox, I got 5x the amount of new followers as usual. So the Universe is showing us like “hey bitches, we got you.”)

But I am now finally accepting that fully because I know those who need my work, will find me and love me even more for following this unique path. 

Those who don’t love me or love this new way, I lovingly say goodbye to you and thank you for walking with me up until this point. 

Who is committing to this path with me?

Let me know how you feel about this and if it resonates with you.