It’s okay to be a mess 💜

The last couple of days, there’s been lots of tears 

how about you?

I post this quote probably a couple times a year, because it’s such a beautiful reminder that there’s not something wrong with us when we feel “messy” 🙏🏼

So much coming up to come OUT to release from the past 

Releasing and healing childhood trauma

Lots of frustration navigating in between worlds, in to the new way of being 

Because so much old is falling away, it feels scary and painful

It’s felt really sad in my body 

It’s felt like all the years of me not getting what I wanted or all the rejection I felt as a child, has all come up to come out now 

All the old stories and beliefs and ways of being 

It’s been really painful but it’s also been so freeing 

The last couple of years haven’t been easy on any of us 

Between the pandemic affecting many of our travels and abilities to see loved ones 

And all the shedding that’s come along with how our lives are changing 

The last year in particular for me has been brutal at times

Although I know my soul signed up to go through this time, it’s still been very difficult for me at times to fully accept the in between 

It’s actually felt like I’m that little fucking kid again that didn’t always get what she wanted, and was rejected by many people in school, because of the hermit/healing/big pause in business mode I’ve been in lol

I’m not quite on pause in business anymore, but not quite fully out 

I’m not quite in the hermit mode I was anymore, but I’m also not fully out 

I’m not quite out of staying with family till I move because plans are happening, but I’m not fully out...YET 

Because more integration time has been necessary not just for myself, but for us all, as we transform 

So my precious love, please don’t judge yourself for whatever you’re going through 

Although I’ve forgiven myself for all the judgment I placed on myself on what these last couple of years have looked like, there’s still been layers coming up for me to heal as well 

And if you’re like me and you had some type of worldly success (or anything for that matter) that you felt has escaped you…

Just know that tower had to crumble love so that you could build a sturdy strong ass foundation, with more wealth than you ever experienced before that’s lasting and aligned 

Our tower moments have happened 

We’ve been rebuilding 

And soon it’s time to reap the harvest 

Just keep the faith 

Don’t give up 

You’re almost there 

And I love you 💜